Happy Valentine’s Day

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helping my son craft paper hearts for 30 classmates and his teacher
writing the word love in yarn
assembling airplanes with tootsie rolls, sticks of gum, lifesavers and rubber bands
baking heart pretzels and adding a dash of pink himalayan salt

all for the loves of my life

and then sharing a chocolate, strawberry and banana fondue with those same loves

definitely a

H A P P Y  V A L E N T I N E ‘ S D A Y

Missing: 10 Days

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10 days lost.  Lost to a horrible wave of flu.  First me, then my son, then my husband.

10 days lost.  Lost to my son kicking and screaming in bed.  Repeatedly crying out for help.  The fevers, aches+pains, headaches, coughs, nausea all just too much for his highly sensitive self.  Lost to my son’s anxiety.  An anxiety that left him motionless, refusing fluids, refusing food.  All his way to make sure he would not throw up.

10 days lost.  Lost to sleepless night, after sleepless night, after sleepless night.  Lost to watching my son grow weaker and weaker.  Lost to a 9-1-1 call, an ambulance ride, an IV and blood work.

10 days lost.  Lost to feeling physically weak, but emotionally weaker.  Lost to self-doubt.  Feeling completely inadequate as a mother and caregiver.

10 days lost.  Lost to isolation.  The isolation of the long, dark hours of the night that left me literally scared for my son’s life.

We are all surfacing.  Regaining physical strength.  Yet these 10 days lost have left me feeling scared.  Empty.  Shaken.  Fragile.  Struggling to trust that we are actually returning to {our version of } normal. 

Merry Christmas

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A simple, but heartfelt, Merry Christmas!  Amidst the hustle and bustle, the shoulds and the expectations that so often accompany this time of year, I hope you are able to slow down, pause and experience a moment of peace and pure joy.  Wishing you and your family a lovely day.  xo