[Joining Bella Cirovic at 52 Photos Project - Week 31: The Closed Window]
My free spirit alter ego is an eclectic, creative type, a free thinker with the courage to experience life and follow her own authentic (off the beaten) path. Inspired by nature and drawn to a sustainable, eco-friendly lifestyle she intends to design and build her own straw bale home. She feels engaged in her dream to build a straw bale retreat centre for children with special needs and their families … a sanctuary where they too can be themselves and feel understood. This version of me is not restrained by convention and has the courage to ‘give it all up’ to honour her true self. She is at peace!
I took this self portrait and wrote these words in the summer of 2011 while Unravelling with a wonderful group of ladies. A sense of freedom. Being open to possibilities and ready to soar. Back then, these all felt so distant. Closed off by many years of living according to the shoulds, trying to fit into a conventional box.
But now, a year and a half later. Well, the really cool part. The line between me and my free spirit alter ego is blurred. Whether here, in this space, or at home day-to-day, more and more I feel this free spirit within me. She is no longer hiding behind a closed, dark window. Not every day, not every week, but more and more, she is me.